Trickster Yucking it up in Washington

May 2, 2010

I’ve had the best time tonight watching the White House Correspondent’s dinner, DVR’d from last night. Wow. It makes me think back to a post I wrote recently about power and function of the trickster archetype to diffuse the harmful potential in taking ourselves too seriously or holding ourselves in too much reverence. Kings in many ages and countries, as well as shamans in many tribal cultures, have had a full-time jester, or trickster, whose job it is to make fun of the king, of the sacred rites and rituals, and whatever else is in danger of being idealized beyond realistic proportion.

Tonight I am reminded that this function is alive and well in the U.S. of A. Whew. Some roasts going on, a lot of irreverence, no one seems exempt, the jabs are carefully targeted and many of them hilariously conceived of. I laughed out loud at our President over and over. And on it continues. Can’t wait to see the rest.

Whether we are conscious of it or not, I think this is an enormously wise and necessary ritual all of its own. It has been going on in Washington since 1914. I believe it is a self-protective and inspired instinct to have this rite in place.

Anais Nin

May 2, 2010

I encountered a quote by Anais Nin today that seemed to say everything I needed to hear, very specifically and precisely at this moment. “I postpone death by living,, by suffering, by error, by risking, by giving, by losing.”

I looked at every single one of those words and took them in like food and oxygen. I’m not sure that “postponing death” is a great goal of mine, but the rest of the concepts I feel like I could write a lifetime treatise on, and in that I found great comfort.

Success and Failure

April 30, 2010

I had a flu this week that took wind out of every sail in my body/soul/spirit, and am struggling really hard to get back from it. At such times feelings of being useless and a failure are ripe to strike like a virus too. When I get just the tiniest bit of mental energy back I’ll have to fight it, but for now I just have to acknowledge the feeling of being knocked down in the fight.

Both of these concepts are so completely subjective. Probably every single person has a different sense of each of them. I wonder if the concept of failure should be eradicated from the psyche. There is really only learning, figuring things out, getting wiser and developing richer character from any experience. But maybe that is pie in the sky thinking. Maybe failure is a harsh reality that happens; it sucks, it hurts, it can kill, and there you go. There it is. Reality.

Then again maybe success is the ability to never acknowledge failure.

Ancient Temples Growing into the Future

April 30, 2010

Tonight I visited my friends who own property across the mountain, RB Morris and Karly Stribling, who were bringing their daughter Oona, one month old, to her mountain nest for the first time. In 2004, RB and Karly invited me here from California as I was considering a move in this direction. They helped me find my new home and to relocate. They are my oldest friends in this part of the world.

RB bought his piece of land here during the tumultuous years of the 70’s. He as a poet, playwright, songwriter and musician navigating the world of the arts in Knoxville, Nashville and San Francisco had the vision to buy (from his meager artists earnings) this jewel of property. His heart and dreams have been tethered to these mountains all through the years of his work in the larger world. His wife Karly, an artist in Knoxville, fell in love with and became a part of the vision and call of the mountain; and now they bring Oona.

Their house is being constructed stone by stone as they can afford the materials and the time to build it. RB and Karly are as patient as time in bringing this home into reality. I’m not talking about normal patience, I’m talking about a patience that resembles nature herself. Over decades their place has been thought out, designed, land moved bit by bit, foundations poured and foundational stone walls are put into place.

 Tonight as we sat around the outdoor fire on a Full Moon night with a brilliant sky full of stars, the light of the fire illuminating the roofless foundational walls, I felt myself to be at the ruins of an ancient temple, like the Parthenon, rather than at new place being built. An ancient vision is literally growing out of that mountaintop and entering the future.

I wrote last evening thoughts about the artists Salvador Dali and Federico Garcia Lorca, noticing the differing uses of their art. In RB’s artistic expressions I hear deeply felt messages about the soul of place; a power so often left behind and untapped in this global world of everyone belonging to everywhere and nobody belonging to anywhere in particular. An intimate relationship with place, both here on the mountain and in the unique artistic culture of Knoxville have informed RB’s art. I felt  I could see the seeds of his love and labor growing right out of the mountain tonight, just as I see my garden sprouting new plants. Something ancient and something new is emerging.

In a recent dream I saw an ancient temple sitting right on top of a skyscraper. Surely that impression helped me view everything as I did tonight. But I think it is true; the ancient is unfolding into the new.

Pushing Thinking

April 29, 2010

As the fates and muses work things out, after writing about thought and thinking for the last couple of days, my next movie in from Netflix was Little Ashes, which I saw yesterday. It was the filmmaker’s musings on the possibly erotic relationship between Salvador Dali and Federico Garcia Lorca. I liked the film for what it was, and it was surely a study in what I have been musing about. Both of these great artists were passionate about using their art to challenge the thinking of the times. And certainly any eroticism that was felt between them was denied open expression by the fact that same-sex relationships were illegal. Oscar Wilde served prison time for it. The thinking of the times put their passions in a prison.

I took classes at the University of Madrid in 1972. One was a class in Spanish poetry. I remember being profoundly moved by Lorca’s writings. I wish I were up on the language enough to read his writing again without translation. He used his poetry to open eyes and hearts to the situation of the working class and as a weapon against Fascism; and he paid the highest price one can pay for his efforts.

In some sense this is a story of systems of thought clashing, with countless people being tragically crushed under the wheels of it. It begs the questions: What is the nature of thought? What is the reality in it that people fight and die for? We change our thinking from day to day, year to year and stage of life to stage of life. Thought isn’t worth killing for.

Dali used his art differently than Lorca. It seemed he mostly just for its own sake he wanted to challenge any system of thought, anything that was held in too much reverence and as many rules of propriety as possible. I find it fascinating that the Surrealists conducted a trial and expelled him from their movement for not being willing to use his art for political ends. He certainly lived his life and thought about art differently than his friend Lorca.

Pushing boundaries of thought – when, by what means, with what motivation, in service to what – these are questions we all have to grapple with. Or do we? I don’t think indigenous people grappled with these questions. I don’t think thought was such a problem for them. The problem evolved as we started thinking so much. I think we have a lot of thinking about thought to do; and as Buckminster Fuller said, a lot of “unthinking” to do.

Still Thinking about Thought

April 27, 2010

I do believe that thoughts create our reality. As David Bohm says, “Thought creates the world, and then hides and says it didn’t do it.” We look at that reality and think it’s just there, objectively, not that our thought created or could influence it. I’ve been observing  this for years, as a student of a spiritual teacher who taught very similar principles, as a student of the Dialogue method ingeniously developed by Bohm to help practioners become more aware of what thought is doing, and during doctral studies in depth psychology. It’s a habit of mine to observe thought and connect dots, like people watch sports or the weather, I watch this.

A  lot of teaching is going on now in various books and circles about how to manifest through thought. Great that people are learning more and more about this, but I get concerned about what is left out in much of the teaching. So much of thought is unconscious, most of it is. There is thought we inherit from ancestors that comes through family lines; thoughts that are gathered from experience that is often misinterpreted but from which conclusions are drawn and become our certainties without re-evaluation; thoughts that are created collectively which are very hard to sort out from our personal thinking. To change thought is a big job. It requires effort, energy, motivation, practice and help. I believe it requires practice with others, with those who are willing to catch us in unconscious thought, or in group effort such as spending time in intentional dialogue. Changing conscious thought is hard enough, changing what we are completely unaware of takes special attention.

Then of course probably the best medicine is “no thought.” As often as we can get to that place – to just feel, don’t think, that is probably when the most powerful shifts become possible.

I wish people would spend more time thinking together about thought, getting to the root of it. I got to teach about it in a college classroom in Los Angeles with rooms full of students from multiple countries and backgrounds. I miss that. Dialogue work takes committment, but can be as exhilarating, intoxicating, creative and astonishing as anything ever gets. To deeply change thought is to change everything.

Thinking and Thought

April 26, 2010

David Bohm, the physicist, pointed out the distinction between thought and thinking. Thoughts occur to us, go through our head, a lot of what occurs in our life is a result of what we have thought. Actually in Buddha said everything that happens to us is because of our thoughts. Bohm says thoughts are past tense. Thoughts have already been thought, and come to us like oxygen – they are in the air. If they are in our heads it doesn’t at all mean that we are the author of them or that they necessarily apply to how we would view and create the world if we were thinking instead.

Thinking is a verb, it produces fresh thought and unfolds new meaning. I have been catching myself lately going over a lot of thoughts. I want to think instead. I have thinking to do to re-create what thought has done in my world.

Lightning

April 25, 2010

I turned 59 today, the ending of another decade. In the wee hours of the day, after staying up until 2:00 a.m with busy tasks, an enormous storm of thunder and lightning broke out. It was useless to try to sleep so I sat up in my living room in the dark watching, listening and experiencing. The lightning lit the mountains and sky over and over, the thunder shaking the ground and the house. Coco kept pacing, pacing. It felt auspicious as a birthday gift. Thunder and lightning just at the turning of the date, to end and begin another decade for me. There have been plenty of thunder and lightning psychologically in my recent life, striking through realities and shaking things up. Physically when too much pressure builds in the atmosphere, lightning strikes to release the tension and balance the atmosphere. Maybe for me personally this birthday middle-of-the-night display portends pressure being released and an atmosphere coming into equilibrium. I welcome that if so, and will be waiting to see how it unfolds.

A particular kind of blessing I get from living in Appalachia is imbibing what is called “white lightning.” The atmospheric lightning began the wee hours of the day, and liquid lightning helped close the day. It’s a good day. Lightning everywhere.

Generosity

April 25, 2010

Maybe this quality, as much as Love, is the nature of the universe. I am thinking right now of people in my life who express generosity as part of their nature as automatically as breathing. They remind me of what life and nature are about – giving. Earth just gives and gives, stars do the same – no cost, no “that will be $25”, or “now what are you going to do for me?” – but just giving because that is what everything is about! What if we all emulated this? Would we have to be so tense around our borders, protecting what is “ours” and not someone else’s, if everyone just helped each other naturally? I do believe that it is deep down, inherent in our natures to do this. You can just observe it in nature itself, and we are that.

I am thankful for the great teachers of generosity in my life, my older sister being one of the most exquisite examples of it to absolutely everyone she knows, and others who have expressed it extraordinarily to me recently. They show me who I want to be. I want to be that.

Know Thyself

April 23, 2010

These words inscribed above the door of the Temple of Apollo in Delphi proclaim the most obvious and the most difficult of any person’s tasks on this Earth. How can the question of “Who am I?” ever be answered? We are literally made of the same stuff as the stars, the “space” in us is as big as all space, we are a composite of personal, ancestral and collective genetic information, where we have come from and where we are going is up for anyone’s guess yet it matters to most of us deeply in ways we can never seem to resolve, we’re composed of lots of unconsciousness and a tiny bit of consciousness, past-present-future are all illusions, time doesn’t exist really, nor does space as we think of it – and I”m supposed to get up in the morning and know how to direct my energies effectively? I’m having a tantrum at this moment obviously.

Know Thyself. The “S”elf is the all, and the “s”elf is the particular, and they are not different from each other but they are. I am not stoned but I feel stoned. I found my paper about the Trickster. It was written in 1994 and needs a lot of updating, but I was intrigued to find this little poem I had written back then.

I think
I am going mad.
Actually, I think I am realizing
     that I have always been mad
     but haven’t known it.
Now I am having flashes of sanity
And they are driving me crazy.

Since recovering from the idea that there is any “outside” truth that can or should be imposed, coming to believe that “truth” is an inside job, I have committed my life energy and any skills I have developed to the project of “Know Thyself” – both for myself and in all of the work that I do with others. I passionately want to help any individual of any age and any background to realize and deeply respect the truth of themselves; and to find that for myself. I feel underneath instead of on top of the task today. But, forward ho.